Yeah...okay

Haven’t posted in a long long time but just wanted to say hi

Having a pretty shitty day and I kind of just want to go to bed. But there’s just way too much on my mind. I want someone that I can tell anything, someone i can hold, someone who will love me as much as i’m capable of loving them. It sucks, you see these people “happy” in their relationships and it makes you feel so minuscule. Almost like you aren’t good enough to have something like that. I know I pick on people about not being in relationships but I’m right there with them and I pretend it doesn’t bother me but honestly it does. I don’t understand why I can’t just be happy and that just pisses me off even more. I feel like even if I told her she would just laugh and walk away but I guess that’s life. Who knows I’ve had people tell me go for it, too bad I’m a chicken shit and couldn’t muster up that kind of courage even if I wanted to.

I don’t have much to say but I am never coming back to Baltimore. I love this place the only people I would consider coming back for is my parents, my brothers, the boys and my little sister who knows who she is. I’m done with the high school BULLSHIT! I don’t want to see any of you nor speak to any of you Bye!

Whose still up and is probably skipping class tomorrow….. This guyy

So I have to go to pittsburgh on wednesday for my Uncle Mike’s Memorial service. I’m really not feeling it at all but I have to. I’m sorry I haven’t talked to you. But I’m in college and I’m busy. I’m a big boy now sorry.

Well First Day of Classes and can’t sleep. There is so much running through my mind and it wont stop. Pittsburgh Wednesday. Rest In Peace Uncle Mike. We love you and miss you more than you could ever imagine.

I didn’t realize how hard today and tomorrow were going to be. I am going to miss you guys so much and I’m a blubbery fucking mess right now. I can’t believe it’s time for me to say goodbye but unfortunately I have to. I couldn’t ask for better friends. You guys are amazing and I love you.